First day of class... so no energy... didnt go to the BIBLE class... -_-|||, cuz i dropped it without even going. :P

and... i dropped Calc 2 too... sigh... today is what? dropping day? anywayz, my shedule is so messed up now. i take statistical method and american vision... @o@... 5555555555555 why i have to take it? anywayz, i hope i can survive this semester... seems classes are tougher than last sem. God Bless Me!!! need to improve my GPA la!!! hohoho... motivation... None so far... not in the mood yet. stop playing game, stop qqing... if its possible. >_< so slack off, still in vacation. ToT... jia you jia you!!! 收心ing... so powerless. >O<

河東獅吼裏面張柏芝對古天樂講的一串話：

 

從現在開始，你只許對我一個人好；

要寵我，不能騗我；

答應我的每一件事情，你都要做到；

對我講的每一句話都要是真心。

不許騗我，罵我，要關心我；

別人欺負我時，你要在第一時間出來幫我；

我開心時，你要陪我開心；

我不開心時，你要哄我開心；

永遠都要覺得我是最漂亮的；

夢裏你也要見到我；

在你心裏只有我。

 

哈哈哈！笑死 + 感動死我了！經典！！！

　　　

wow... haven't come here for a long time...

just done my exam today!!! wel... guess i will fail them. didnt study!!! ToT... BIO BIO BIO!!! ruining my GPA... 555...

wa!!! just realized the semester is over!!! -_-''' i know i'm slow lah :P. haha. nwayz, not as bad as i thought at the beginning of the semester. except the Bio... @o@''' gosh, i hope i can stil have 3+ GPA with tat crappy bio grade. my enemy now --- BIOLOGY!!!

got to sleep for 24 hours tonyt! wel, if i can. i doubt it tho :P

snowing!!! snow harder. so when vina comes, can have snow fight!!! wahahahah. ya, freezing''' esp i got shocked easily in this stupid dryass city... does tat make sense? :P 

wa... one month vacation... never thought to shorten the vacation, but now i do. -_-''' cuz i'm staying in this 鳥不生蛋 city. all trees around. -_-'''

Winter in china too. Miss Hotpot! ToT... well, i think i have a year's food storage. @o@... i "accidentally" bought too much. >"< hahaha, well, after vina comes, she will cook me noodles. altho i doubt if it can be eaten. :P lol. jk jk.

Miss Home!!!

 

咖啡依舊是香醇的，   
生活依舊是美好的，   
就算給我再大的城堡，   
我也不會去做愛情的奴隸。   
就算沒有王子，
我依舊是個驕傲的公主，   
繼續着我一個人的童話

下一站會到哪裏？ 
到底愛會停在哪裏？ 
從誰的懷裏轉到哪裏？ 
而你現在又在哪裏？ 
我想你，輕輕的... ... 
已經遺失的記憶又將怎樣找回？ 


如果我是個巫婆， 
我會日夜研究， 
直到有一天， 
我會煉製出無限的快樂！ 


我不想知道誰是這個世界上最美麗的人， 
我也不想知道誰是這個世界上最聰明的人， 
我更不想知道誰是這個世界上最富有的人， 
但魔鏡魔鏡我只想知道... ... 
誰是這個世界上最愛我的人， 
請你告訴我，好嗎？

我的靈魂仍然在飛， 
她想找一片青郁的草地， 
再停下來近看兩眼， 
便會安心的高飛， 
就算這一盛事極美的傳奇， 
如逢嚴寒，亦別有一番風味。 
瀟灑與世界道別，還有遠方的知己潇洒与世界道别，还有远方的知己， 
每天都將深深的祝福你們， 
即使我將遠離

哪一種等待會讓你明白， 
我在這漫漫歲月中曾經有過苦苦的掙扎， 
我仿佛看見你出現在人海， 
於是我，轉過身留下幾年你的淚花 

 
想你知道我無法回憶過去， 
念你念到迷路也好， 
就這樣， 
我被困在這回憶的森林中不能自拔。

找個罐子， 
我把心封閉起來了， 
放入時閒的冰箱， 
至少在今後的歲月中， 
我會讓它保持新鮮

玫瑰開放了， 
魔咒解開了， 
可是王子卻還沒有來，
就這樣吧， 
不如我再睡一下，就好了

是雪嗎？ 
在這個溫暖的四月， 
會有雪嗎？ 
可我分明就是感覺到， 
它在紛紛揚揚的落下了。 
凄淒涼涼地落在我的眼角和眉梢， 
這不就是雪嗎... ...

曾經以爲你就是我的天堂， 
因爲我是一個只能生存在天堂裏的天使。 


如今，你不在了... ... 
我爲了活下去就必須去尋找一個沒有你的天堂， 
昨天的我不是今天的我， 
今天的我不是明天的我， 
我是我， 
我又不是我...
 

WA!!! LONG TIME NO COME... -_-'''

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED!!! just finished the busiest ever day, speech, exam, paper due!!! OMG, thought i could relax after tat, but NOOOOOOOOO.... Still have two labs to do! 555555555555555 ToT... i'm so exhausted... just figure out tat i have a term paper due right after thanx-giving break!!! @o@'''

55555555 My "lovely" break... anywayz, better than nothing @o@...

sigh, i gave up doing tat shit. do it tom ba... sigh, hope i can finish it on time, or else, i'm dead!

really worry about my GPA this semester. thought it would go well, but no... disappointed... ToT...

btw, how come all classes are FULLLLLL? I couldnt enroll in any class... i only got two so far, 6 credits hours... @o@... nice... but will be kicked out... sigh, deal with it tom ba! so tired now! dont want to think!

i will go sleep now! "never get enough sleep!"

 

 

just talked to my bio teacher. -_-''' 555. so shamed... i hate bio lah! ToT... bio teacher is nice tho. aiyoyo...

hao lei o!!! never got enough sleep. after tat, i promise i will give myself enough time to rest.  

TMD，早上出門上課，踫到一只黑佈隆冬的狗，嚇死我了！！！怪狗！沒事在草地上滾來滾去，還跳來跳去！無奈的我怕上課來不及，只能假裝沒看到硬從它旁邊繞過。沒想到她竟然對招我沖過來，媽的！！！嚇死我了！糗死了啦！害我大叫，旁邊還有人在看！！！ToT...沒臉見人了！那只狗真像發春，不然就是神經病，不然就是好動狗！-_-''' 好可怕！！！害我在上課的時候還發抖！！！唉！克星！！！（不過我在想，Jason應該會比我更慘吧！at least i still dare to pass by... 哈哈哈！抱抱，confirm it! ：P)

 

Learning exam today!!! well, easier than i thought, but can get really poor score.

everyone b4 exam was lyk "i'm ready to fail it!" "i'm gonna fail this crap!" fail fail fail...

after exam, "Damn, it is super super super easy." "I am not supposed to study tat lot." "Omg, its extremely easy!!!" 

see... how big change was tat... anywayz... i dont think i did well... i am totally confused about those questions, n i'm not sure about the answers. sigh... didnt study for tat exam!!! omg. found tat i'm so brave ye... dare to go to exam without any preparation!!! OMG!!! well... multi-choice was the hardest one!!! so confusing!!!

 

累死了！每次都說exhausted, 我懷疑我能exhausted幾次。到那次真的exhausted, 會是怎樣的situation!!! sigh...

 

OMG... just found out tat i had a lot to review on psych, n i haven't started yet... OMG... i cannot fail any of the exams!!! 555555555555555555... i never read thos txts. how am i gonna review ah? have a lot of work to do ye... si ding le la! sigh...

 

anywayz, have to sleep lo! but... my most sleepy time has passed. cannot fall asleep again, zen me ban? 9am class tom... if i skip again, i may be kicked... >"<  sigh, go to bed go to bed...

 

how come i'm so high tonyt?

 

btw, henley, wenshao, thank you la! ^^

Again... i did nothing this weekend...

have two exams next week! ToT... just cannot concentrate.... a lot of distraction!!! sigh, cannot ever study with a laptop bside me! >"<  um... wat am i gonna do? study a day before exam, again? as usual!!! never changed habit! -_-''' anywayz!!!

 

Damn... I almost failed my bio exam!!! wat the hell!!! i hate bio i hate bio i hate bio!!! why i took bio??? OMG... it will seriously pull my GPA down... 5555555555555555555555 ToT... omg, how come i did so badly on tat exam? i didn't even realize it after i finished my exam. i thought i did ok... ToT... 晴天霹靂大概就是那樣吧！！！氣死我啦！！！我討厭生物！！！！hate it hate it hate it!!!

 

well... back to normal. Um... CNT Exam... not too bad, at least easier than i thought it would be... i hope its really as i think, everytime i thought i did well, it would end up with crappy score -_-||| Chinese history... i hope i didnt do so poor, or else wat a shame for chinese did poorly on chinese history!!! gosh, hope tat wont happen on me... pray pray pray!!! @#$%^&*() anywayz, so far, i know i got one wrong. ToT (Foreigner called the class of Chinese wealth bureaucrats during Ming and Ch'ing dynasties MANDARIN....) ................ sigh, i missed tat one! ToT so sad!!! 5 points!!! HATER!!! anywayz, just want to rest now! screw all those stuffs.

 

 

me go sleep! zZz...

Exam tom!!! sigh... i haven't really studied anything... *DEAD*

Even tho its about chinese history... i kinda forgot all... sigh... wat a shame if a chinese do poorly in the chinese history exam!!! anywayz. dont care! let it be ba! not in the mood to study.

 

cannot really type how i feel here any more... dont want to let my parents worry about me... sigh!!!

anyawyz... livejournal... just check tat awhile ago, n found out tat everything i wrote is about him.. -_- how am i gonna delete all those things? i find no way to do so... hao fan a!!!

girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No it's not. Please it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl hugs him
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
(in the paper the next day): A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

 

If u love any one this much...let them know...before its too late... I love you 4 ever.....and always 2 the end....i cant live without u.

終于... speech結束了！！！ 我也快累死了！連日來每天只睡了4個小時，真的快虛脫了！-_-

One more exam on friday!!! Sigh... 加油！！！ 快要weekend了... 雖然說weekend也有一堆事情要做！

 

OMG... 怎麽那麽多東西要做啊？2 labs， 2 exams this week N A SPEECH!!! GOSH... 要怎麽做啊？啊啊啊！！該做的事情太多了，沒時間去想那些亂七八糟的事了！

 

 

哎呀... 好多東西要做，好多東西要讀！！！頭大啦！明天speaker‘s lab... speech好可怕哦！@o@''' 不行啦！在上面講不出來很丟臉耶！have to prepare prepare prepare!!! 加油加油加油!!! After this, you are done lah! 每件事情都有解決的辦法，so 不要慌，開心點！！！ DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

今天下午發了email給室友，想安慰她，告訴她不管發生了什麽事，如果她想哭想找人講話，我都會在，也都會支持她！剛剛收到他的回信，好感動。其實之前，我跟他的關係就只在於朋友，不是很close的朋友。不過我想經過這件事，我們會成爲好朋友的。我很高興我說的話讓他感覺好過了點。至少我還不是沒用的。呵呵！

在美國這種地方，對於我和她來説，其實都還很陌生，發生了什麽事情，如果身邊沒有人，真的會很無助！然而，卻也是在這種時候最能找到真正的朋友，患難見真情。我們互相安慰，互相鼓勵，彼此不開心，雖然不能真的幫上什麽忙，不過精神上的鼓勵往往對一個心情沮喪的人來説，是很大的幫助。我才了解到，其實我真得不是孤單一個人，身邊還有一群好朋友互相扶持。我真得很開心，很慶幸，我有這樣的室友。i'm really glad. ^^

Forever Friends Nana!!! ^^

 

其實在她的事情中也讓我了解到，人生中，會有很多的失去。 但是，每當失去的時候，我們其實還是有的到一些東西，只是失去的痛讓我們沒辦法看道我們所得到的。而讓自己陷在痛苦中。最近讀family, 裏面有句話， 大概是:"things always have  two sides, it is just a matter of how you see it. you can only see darkness if you stay in the dark, but you will see brightness if you keep yourself bright." something lyk tat, tat sentence actually gave me a strong feeling of life. i always know tat in one's life, there must be a lot of unpredictable things happen. n its always painful to lose something, but somehow i realized that if lookin at the bright side, you will know actually life is not tat struggled... wel... i bet i will have lots of tyms that i cannot think optimistically, but as life goes on, i am sure there will be more and more realizations... so cheer up friends. ^^ we are always here for each other. (vina加油吧！ nana gan be te！！！)

 

 

 

just finished bio exam today... feeling so tired, didnt sleep last nyt. i didnt even know wat the heck i was doing during da exam. just selected the random letters... sigh... i guess i would fail it... why am i choosing bio??? !!!  @o@

 

after all the classes, i went to elie's house for cooking... the very first tym in my life i cooked for some1... well, i dont know why i am doing tat, just want to accomplish my wish ba... i don't know how it taste... hopefully not too bad, i hope! @_@'''

 

so tired... i am really exhausted after these days... i want to rest...  

我很想堅持，不顧一切地堅持。可是儅我領悟到原來的愛情已經不見了，儅那種感覺失去的時候，在堅持下去將會變成彼此折磨。想了好多，是不是真的想通了，還是沒發生的事，我再騙自己我做得到，我不知道。現在的感覺...不用我說，大家心裏有數。

爲了怕，爲了習慣而執著嗎？我不斷的求老天給我我們一次又一次的機會，機會是得到了。可是老天卻沒教會我們怎麽相處。也許真的要痛過，才能長大吧。我知道痛，心像被針扎，身體無助到像快死掉。可是因爲痛就這樣讓兩個人都不快樂嗎？痛，縂有一天會結巴的。心裏的痛可以被藏起來。

感情變質了該怎麽繼續？早該結束了，千錯万錯，我不該一直給自己機會，讓他結束在這種狀況下。不管別人怎麽說我，隨便吧。

 

希望Nana可以快點好起來。知道她心情不好，可是不知道該怎麽安慰她。對不起...Gomenesai...

 

唉！不想想了！想不到結果的！睡覺去吧！我可不想明天再翹課！

 

抱抱，我永遠和你在一起啦！你不開心有我陪你呢！想找人講話手機24小都開着，上課除外啦！其餘時候，一定跟你講到爽！如果你不會被我的signal氣死的話！:P 加油哦！其實我們都知道該怎麽做，其實我們都知道彼此的感覺，其實我們都懂...只是我們都做不到，唉！沒關係！有我陪你呢！永遠支持你！愛你愛你！muwa muwa!

 

byebye bday!!! 祈禱我在生日結束前睡着！

omg... just saw my age in the profile, cannot believe i'm 20 already!?!?! wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... NO MORE teenager... hahaha. actually dont really care, at least i look lyk one. :P k... nvm, i look more lyk kid. ToT...

 

haha. bday almost pass, well, this is the bday i definately cannot ever forget. feel so warm. hehehe. thank you ppl! love y'all. @^3^@

 

最喜歡 任性 最討厭 做作 最受不了 男生 欺騙背叛

 

最想去巴黎　 最愛瞎鬧搞笑　 最怕兩只眼變核桃

我就是這個調調　 你要不要

 

怪怪  我就愛發呆　 開心難過　 眼淚都來 

 

乖乖  當然會耍賴　 自由自在　 左右擺　

 

你猜我　 怪不怪　 乖不乖

 

最常說不知道　 最懶得動腦　 最希望完美的人　 能被我遇到

最擅長聒噪　 最不會撒嬌　 最害怕我愛誰　 而他不愛我